hmmm…
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No matter how bad you fucked up. No matter how annoying you can be. No matter how confusing you can get. No matter embarrassing you are. No matter how stupid you can be. A best friend is called a best friend for a reason, right?
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It’s not that I don’t like my current friends. It’s not that. I just want some new spice in my life that I can say “wow” to. I want to meet new people even though I am shy. My life has seemed to have gotten boring. I just want something new in my life.
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The pressure has just sunken in and is weighing down on me now. Stupid competition, it was very nice to know that hawaii has place for the last 4 years and is on a streak. I am probably going to ruin it. and i am not being super self doubting, i am only moving on in nationals by default. I probably won third place in the state competition due to the fact that the leading school only entered one this year. Also, i had this decision dropped on me last minute and it was the make me feel bad one too.
I should have listened to my heart which said no, you can’t handle this pressure and now you have the whole state (well the ones that care about this stuff) looming over your back.
Maybe it would help if i was better supported with and optimistic attitude and not barraged with sarcastic comments on the placing streak hawaii has got in the competition and how pitiful my board was.
Believe me, i am excited to go, i want to win, and i will be ecstatic if i do. but i do have my doubts due to the fact that my winnings have been defaulted.
as for now,
breathe calvin, relax, keep doing what you are doing, try your best, who cares if you win or lose, you have to make sure they don’t control a thing, make sure that you are still yourself, and even if you disappoint people on the way, the only thing that matters is that you tried your hardest, you never gave up, and you gained experience in the process there.
Would it?
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I crave attention from the people who i know does not give me the attention back. All I want for them is to return the care that I give to them, but that doesn’t seem to be happening. I know I shouldn’t be paying attention to those who don’t seem to care but those are the ones that I pay the most attention too :\